Hey folks! Long time no see, again!
Should forewarn you all now, this post is basically a very personal look at events in my life, and will probably be pretty boring, so if you don't really care, you can stop reading now, i won't be offended. Promise :)
So having joined WWE-Club 10 years or so ago, I've know a few of you for some time, so it seems right to share this with you. As you will have seen, i drift of and on here at times depending how Uni is going, where I'm living, what's happening in life, etc. The good news (or not as the case may be aha) is i finished University and now live in my own place, WITH INTERNET!! (Seriously, having no internet for the past 9 months is a killer! Public librarys are awful, awful places..), This means, i can finally get back on this site and adding to it! Can't wait to get back to the old ways of discussing WWE, TNA, Films etc, and I'm seriously thinking of trying to re-start some form of the WWDG, so yeah, who knows :)
So, what's so big that's happened in my life that i wish to tell you all? Well, a little backstory. From the age of 10 I've always attended church. It was never forced on me nor did my family attend, it was a choice i made. At the age of 14, i became a born again christian. I'm sure a religious debate at some point will clear up my views, but for the time being I'll just class it as "I believe in god, and rule #1 is, don't be a dick in life, love others, and try your best to do the right thing". Over the past 10 years, my faith has changed in so many ways, and i feel blessed in how things have gone. I went through quite a hard home life style with my family being as "drama orientated" as they were (read between the lines on that one). I then moved to University and had the best 3 years of my life, and as a person changed more and more than i ever could have imagined. I began Uni at a silent goth who never went out, and graduated as some weird social "hipster" who can't stay in. However, there was one major thing i had yet to sort out, a secret i always felt needed to be held back, and hidden away. That was, until 6 month's ago when i finally came out about it....get it? Came out....because I'm gay?....so funny! But yeah, I'm gay. Always known it, but always hid it, and hid it well it has to be said. I don't come across as camp in the slightest, and I was smart enough to try and blend in with the "lads" that no one ever noticed.
It took me until i was 24 to finally tell the first person. Since then, I've told my family, friends and work mates, all who have been extremely supportive. (Random side note, my granddad was by far the best reaction. I told him, and he sat in silence. He then left the room without saying a word, and rummaged upstairs. He came back down, threw a coat-hanger at me, and said "HA! Look, that's out the closest aswell!". If my grandad can joke about something, he's OK with it.). The only problem came when i decided to tell my church, and thats when it got messy. They tried to support me, but in the end i had to leave. A youth work i led there was something i was basically forced to step away from due to me being gay (or acting on it as they defined). So yeah, they didn't take it well. As for me and the bible, and how some see it as an "abomination", well, again my views are pretty different to those of my church, but again I'm sure that will come up in due time.
However, i can honestly say I've never been happier. I've now been in a relationship for the past 2 months with a guy i met, and having come out, feel completely at ease with myself. I no longer panic when someone points out i don't have a girlfriend, i no longer worry when i fancy a guy and then make myself feel bad for it, and i no longer have to hide who i am. And so, now you all now. Some of you may wonder why I'm telling you, and honestly, I'm not sure myself. I just think every other area of my life knows, and as a community i have known for 10 years, i feel its something you can all can know.So blessings to you all, can't wait to get myself back into things, and i hope your all "OK" with my little news. Peace x