There is this girl from work. You guys might have seen me mention her a few times. Always had a crush with her, from the day I met her. That much I know. I knew she had a boyfriend right from the start so it just seemed to me like a lost cause.
As time went by, we got to know each other better and became friends. We get along really well and have lots in common. As I have gotten to know her more I have come to realise that she would be perfect for me. I began to curse my luck that she already had a boyfriend. As I get the feeling that if she didn't and I asked her out, she would say yes.
Many people at work know I like her and this one girl has started to say to me that she thinks I'm gonna fall in love with her and I am going to end up getting hurt. I keep shrugging this off, telling her that wont happen and that it's just a crush. But over the last couple of months, I have noticed a few things they may come into factor.
1. I think about her all the time.
2. I go out of my way at work to talk to her.
3. I love being at work because she's there.
4. I had a few days off a while back and I missed her.
5. My day at work doesn't feel complete until I talk to her, even if it's just to say hello.
6. On days where I don't get a chance to speak to her, I feel bummed out all day.
7. I get really jealous and pissed off when other men at work speak to her. Like really pissed off. Why are they talking to her? Why is she talking to them? What are they talking about?
8. When she sees me and smiles at me from across the warehouse, I wave back like a goofy little idiot.
9. Every single time I am talking to her, I just want to grab her and kiss her.
Also, last weekend, I went to Butlins with some friends and to plan was to chat up a bunch of girls. While that is indeed what happened, I messed it up with a lot of them because I got drunk and started talking about this girl from work. No girl wants to hear a guy walk about another girl. I told all this stuff above to one girl I got quite friendly with and she thought it was sweet and that she thinks it sounds like I am in love with her.
I continue to deny this. Because I can't be. It can't work out. I can't have her. That's why I can't be in love with her. She is just a girl from work who has a boyfriend. That's it.
I'm not in love with her.